I have unresolved resentment towards my childhood and the surroundings. I know they did, but for some reason i don't my parents did they best they could. Knowing some about how people act now, and reading the teacher's reports about my behavior in class, my parents could have done more to get me engaged in class and doing extra-curricular activities. Now i'm sloth, require exterior motivation, encumbered with indecisiveness, fearful of being alone. So fearful, also, that i'm afraid to get close as well. maybe i'm just being pessimistic or overly emotional, but i don't feel like anything is helping.

Being around children doesn't help at all. Gramma has no sense of privacy, cannot read people, and don't understand anything anyone says to her because she's partially deaf in one ear, completely deaf in the other. Dee i don't think really works either, but it's partially, if not mostly, my fault for not revealing that i'm so fragile at times. I'm probably just in another down phase. hopefully it'll pass quickly.

Back to the resentment, modern society just sux ass. selfishness abounds, teachers do not realize how important they are, parents do not realize how important family time is, because it brings experience and interpersonal skills that'll help get them forward in the future. time with their children will bring insight into how they are to be raised, what they need help with, what their strengths are and how they can succeed in this world.
..... 2 hrs later
My what wonders video games do :)

Tags: children, education, parents, resentment
Current Mood: morose

it's great to hear companies helping students pay college tuition, big rich guys setting up scholarships at their alma mater, but what about the other students? in high school? in elementary school? middle school? with the budget cuts, schools need more money than ever.

but why are the budget cuts happening? where is this money going?

why take away music and athletics and extracurricular activities like that? they are the basis of our society, what we all enjoy and come together for. classical musicians, bands, singers, baseballers, footballers, swimmers, we all love them. if we take them out of ours schools, nothing will entertain us, our weekends will be filled with healthy activities like hiking, reading, cooking, housecleaning. our bus rides will be filled with the sounds of pages flipping and light conversation. at the same time, kids will not be born smart because no one will be around to play Mozart to the mom. plus these things keep most kids off the street and away from dangerous stuff...

why choose schools and children to suffer versus the big companies that can afford the hit? why make the poor pay when the rich can easily dive into their pockets if they were told what's going on and why the state needs their help? as far as i know, most rich are often selfish, but with the right incentive and education on the state of current affairs, and they'd probably be willing to part with a small percentage of their savings, which can be a huge help to those not even able to set up savings.

what message are we sending to our posterity then? that we don't care about them? that education is not important at all? that they are just one of a hundred other kids that don't matter and should just blend in with the crowd and not explore their possibilities? sigh the state of the union isn't very bright.... i'm glad to hear that students are taking matters into their own hands and getting representatives and politicians to do something. with the right energy, the flow might reach the white house. and maybe the kids will be the ones to bring back out troops? what a wonderful world.

Tags: activities, budget, children, education, government, politics
Current Mood: hopeful